Monday, January 19, 2015

New Beginnings

This past month of December was a myriad of emotions. I was trying to get all my projects done before Christmas. I had knit bags to sew and I still needed to shop for presents.I wanted to act normal no matter what. I went to rug hooking Christmas get togethers. I blogged like I always do but I had a secret hanging over my thoughts. I had gone in for a routine colonoscopy and they found something.It's kind of scary when you go in on a Friday for a routine test and on Monday the surgeon office is calling. Three days later they were scheduling surgery.First thing I had to do was the awful noisy Mri whirling in my head experience then more doctor visits was the trips to different doctors which was unsettling. I felt like the whole month it was getting more and more serious but maybe I was in denial I didn't feel sick or anything. I watched endless Christmas movies listened to Christmas music and yet It hung over my head all December like a giant question mark is it cancer or not? I can't believe how much that one small word Cancer shocks a persons soul.

 I told just a couple close friends because I just needed to act normal and I felt like if anyone asked me I would be in tears.I have the best of friends.I had plenty of homemade soup and a prayer quilt I was ready for surgery whether I liked it or not.I had plenty of prayers going out my way!The surgeon didn't know how long a surgery it would be. There were no Christmas cookies for me! I didn't want visitors I just wanted to get it over with and get back home.

So the day after Christmas I was in the hospital that ended up being a nine
hour surgery.The nurses at the Sharp Memorial were clearly all Angels in disguise. Everyone from the nurses aides to housekeeping  were so very kind  All I can say in that surgeons hands was expertise. I could not express how  extremely vulnerable you feel when you can barely take care of yourself.

 Never under estimate the power of a stranger holding your hand for a second in the middle of the long night with  those simple words God bless. Jack stayed every day and night and I was comforted so much by his help and his strength.and the plain kindness.  I have never seen so many iv's in my life! It was a scary and the last thing I wanted to hear was that awful word Cancer. Yes it was that word but early stages they caught it and it's out.

 Now I am back at home with Maulie and Morris by my side and so extremely happy to be home The surgeon said  it will take a couple months for my body to recover. I will have to be monitored for five years with trips every six months to the doctor. Right now it's one day at a time and maybe the end of the week I will try to work on
one of my unfinished hooked rug it just depends how I feel.Nothing interests me right now. I feel so blah and nauseous all the time.  I am not sure about my blog for now since I am not doing anything but recovering.I have holes all over my belly.It looks like I was machined gunned lol! I will check in on your blogs when I can.
Hugs to you all,cheri


Susan said...

Blessings for your healing! I can only imagine how scary the month has been. I trust you will have a full recovery and someday this will be just a memory.

Kim said...

Oh dear! At least it was caught early so that is a huge blessing. I'm so sorry you had this happen to you. Im impressed your doctor moved so quickly, that is a positive thing.
Stay strong and don't rush your recovery. Sending you huge hugs and healing prayers.
Keep us posted, ok

Julia said...

My poor Cheri, I know all too well the dreaded confirmation of Cancer. It happened to me but I was already 3rd stage breast cancer.

Hearing the word " malignant breast cancer" was a shock and the worst thing for me was telling my grown up kids, my husband and my elderly mom.

I got lots of support, spiritually, physically and emotionally. Having friends show they care is very therapeutic and healing.

I put all my trust in Jesus and was ready to accept whatever His will was. I beat this ugly cancer and even though I was told that I would probably die of it, I'm still here. I had a radical mastectomy December 19, 2002.

You will beat this Cheri. Think positive thoughts and put your trust in a higher power. You will be fine. It only is going to slow you down for a while.

Concentrate on getting better. You are loved.

Big Hugs and Prayers .

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Julia, i can't even imagine stage three Cancer . I too feel Life isn't in our hands and only the Good Lord knows how many days we are here. I am lucky they got it so early. I just feel so yucky still . I have lost weight which is always good . Lol thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers Julia, cheri

acorn hollow said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Rugs and Pugs said...

Oh, Cheri,
I am so sorry but thankfully it was caught early and you are on the road to recovery. Take it easy and concentrate on getting better.
Hugs and prayers :)

Larkrise garden girl said...

Thanks Lauren

Mary A said...

Hugs, Cheri! Thank goodness for colonoscopies! It found my cancer too. Rest your mind and body. It's been 8 years and so far so good. Prayers are coming your way!

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Mary A thanks for the prayers and especially your doing well! Hugs cheri

Karen said...

I am sorry that you have had to go through this surgery. I wish you the best results and many, many more years of making quilts.

Kathy Phillips said...


I am so sorry you have had to go through this, but hope the worst is over! Now you can just heal, and pamper yourself - you deserve it! I will let Mom know, I know she would want to send you her best wishes for a full and speedy recovery. - You will be in both of our thoughts and prayers!

Larkrise garden girl said...

Thanks Kathy, it is definitely one day at a time. I am having a tougher time then I anticipated but the good thing that I have lost weight. Lol. Hugs to you and your sweet mom😀 cheri

annie said...

So very sorry, but thanking God it is over, and you're recovering, God bless you!

Bee Lady said...

So sorry to hear about this Cheri but so glad you had your "routine" colonoscopy. You are a poster child for having routine tests done. Yes, as some have said, take care of you. Pamper yourself, you deserve it. Take naps when you're tired. You will heal, give yourself time. I've heard the words "suspicious looking area" and "need to have another look" during two separate mammograms. I was fortunate. I'm praying hard for my sister right now. She is having lesions on her face and they think it's lupus. Life can change in an instant. We need to Treasure each day.

Cindy Bee

Larkrise garden girl said...

I totally agree cindy bee, life does seem to change in an instant. Hugs cheri I'll be praying for your sister that everything is going to be o.k

Kurt Schindler said...

Fighting cancer is like a roller coaster ride - many ups and downs. My husband was diagnosed with lung cancer in late August . The months of chemo and radiation were pretty terrible but he is feeling better now and we are planning a trip to New Zealand and Australia next month. Do it while we can is our motto.

Hope you are feeling better soon and have a complete recovery. Enjoy your blog.


Larkrise garden girl said...

Oh Charlotte, my prayers are with your family . I can't believe how many people are so brave and just do the best they can . So many brave people in this world. Have a wonderful trip and God Bless, cheri

Dog Trot Farm said...

Hi Cheri, my thoughts and prayers have been with you since I read this post. I do hope you are well on your way to a complete recovery...Looking forward to seeing some of your latest hooking hooking projects...Take each day as it comes and stay strong...Sending hugs from Maine, Julie...

Farm Girl said...

Oh Cheri, I am so sorry you went though that. I hope now that it is February you are feeling a bit better. I am so glad they caught it in time.
I will put you on my prayer list right now. I will be praying for peace and complete recovery.

Larkrise garden girl said...

Thank you for your prayers. It is still one day at a time .
One day I feel a little better next day not so good . As always this too shall pass!

Bee Lady said...

Hi Cheri,
Just checking in to say hi and se how you are doing. I think you will have a few interesting and inspiring blog stories when you heal enough to tell us more details. I hope you are getting stronger everyday. Summer will be here soon and you can soak up some sunshine. Not too much though.
My sister does not have lupus and her face is healing. Thank you for your prayers. It's been a rough winter. Just had my mammogram Friday and still waiting on the results.

Cindy Bee

Larkrise garden girl said...

Cindy bee, isn't life a a challenge at times. I am still not up to par but hanging in there,I hope everything goes well with your mammogram , hugs cheri

Anonymous said... last I have found you. I'm so sorry to hear about the ordeal you have been through the last several months and I hope you are feeling better each day. When you are feeling well enough I would like to ask you about your wonderful rug -- pray, moo, cow. It's simply fabulous!
Blessings to you...Margie

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Margie , I am doing much better then a couple months ago thank you . Ask away, cheri

Anonymous said... so happy to hear you are much better! Great news. I am a new hooker. I'm currently working on my very first hooked rug. I'm doing a lot of reverse hooking!! It can be frustrating, but my love for hooked rugs keeps me going. As I mention I am in LOVE with your pray, moo, cow rug. Is this your own pattern? Did you draw it? If so, I'm in awe! I'm wondering if you would grant me your permission to do your pattern. I would totally understand if you declined, but I have my fingers crossed!
Blessings to you! Margie

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Margie yes it was a hodgepodge pattern that I made in honor of two women Dairy farmers. One was Julia of the blog Of petals and wool and another was Leontien a young Dairy farmer who died of cancer she wrote a blog
Called four leaf clover. I used a old quilt cow a Cheri Payne black doll and added a church and trees . The words were what was in my heart about such hardworking women and the struggle Leontien was going thru.I know you will like rug hooking it is to me folk art.
I remember how excited I was seeing something that inspired me. Let me think about it for a couple hours. Where did you see it?

Anonymous said...

I've seen it when googling hooked rugs and saved it on my computer. Your rug makes my heart sing. Maybe it's because as a youngster I lived on a farm for a while and it brings back good memories. Or maybe it's because of Johnnie Mae, a black woman who came into my life and made such a difference. I know it has a lot of meaning to you. It is a very special rug.

BTW, I'm not good at posting on blogs. The only way I could get my message to send was to hit anonymous! But I don't mean to be anonymous! I'm Margie Brown and live in Dallas, Texas.

Have a good day!

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Margie, I was using my iPad and I am not sure if it went thru. But yes go ahead make it your own. Have fun just as long as you don't make a bunch of patterns it's fine with me. Hugs cheri I enjoyed your story.

Anonymous said...

Cheri .... Oh my gosh! I am SO excited!! You have made my day! I just got home after being out (in the rain) all day and saw your message. It will probably be some time before I get to this, but I am so thrilled. Thank you, thank you, thank you. You have made this girl very happy! I will make one pattern only - promise. I hope my rug will be as lovely as yours.

Blessings and ❤️ Margie

Larkrise garden girl said...

I am sure it will be wonderful Margie🐑