Monday, January 27, 2014

This Moment

                                                       Jan made this isn't it beautiful!
                                                     Thanks Michele for taking the picture

The last three weeks has been emotionally hard my daughter started another round of a month of Iv infusions once a week and then the rest of the week she was ill. Little Jack is a handful so I was bouncing from my home to staying with them.The great thing is no more hour and a half drive!
They moved in the middle of that to be closer to her hubby's work and her doctor so that is a good thing.
I had to be back and forth helping living in two homes so that's what I have been doing this month .I had my little grandson for five days when she developed bronchitis so what can I say I am enjoying this moment.
What I am working on in knitting class

 A moment to myself to just do a routine pleasure of speaking from my heart.As a mom I never realized how much your heart can bare.The ups and downs of your heart in the unexpected moments of being there and being helpless.One minute she is at urgent care and the next moment she is going by ambulance to the hospital because she is not getting enough air.Now I am a gabby person but sometimes when you have to wait and see and act normal around a two and a half year old you suddenly realize how good an actress you really are.
This feels so good to be sitting here typing away and just seeing what a pretty day it is. I have my knit class today and I have the luxury of cleaning up my yard planting some lavender and doing dishes in my own home.
I am not writing this as a poor me but as a realization you can still be happy in your own way with finding those moments between the crazy crisis moments and really feeling blessed.Most people get sick and are better and the crisis is over but people that have chronic illness have series of set backs and good days.I have had to ask the question to myself in coping with my life. How does a person cope with seeing loved ones suffering with illness.With the last years going by I have slowly decided that its a process and a realization it's not in your hands and enjoying the moments of simple routine life that most people take for granted.
                                                           What was in my camera last time I looked
                                                             Country Loft pictures!


                                           I had Pam quilt my Cheri Payne quilt
                                           I just need to bind it and it's ready for Christmas next year

                                                      More pictures from December to post.
                                                      I am going to start a new rug!

                                                                       Great Crows

                                                         More of my rugs from Christmas

I want to put Maulie my shitzu in the new rug somewhere.I am lucky and so is anyone that loves to create!
So for all the caregivers and quiet folks that are quietly suffering with illness in the mist of endless trials of this simple short life that choose to plant smiles on their faces for us. Try to enjoy just one moment and know it just takes one.Hugs Cheri
                                                                  Maulie Brown


Julia said...

Hi Cheri, first of all let me tell you that you are a wise woman and I admire you and your attitude.

It's so hard seeing our love ones suffer and the best we can do is do what we can. That's all we can do. God will do the rest and he's in command.

I'm so glad that you can enjoy these little moments in your own home. It's nice seeing a post from you and seeing that you are still knitting. I can't wait to see this project finished. What are you knitting. The Christmas quilt is lovely and your friend did a great jog on the quilting.

Take care and I'll keep you and your daughter and family in my prayers.

Julia said...

I forgot to mention that I love Jen's cross stitch sampler. My goodness, it must have been a very tedious job to work on such a small count. My eyeballs would certainly have fallen out if I tried to do such fine work.

Maulie looks like she wants to say something.
Hugs, JB

Dog Trot Farm said...

Hi Cheri, being a mom and grandmother it seems to be in our DNA to come to the rescue of our loved ones...I would not have it any other way and thank goodness we can...I hope your daughter regains her health and feels well soon, I understand what a worry it must be...Keeping you and your family in my prayers, greetings from Maine, Julie.

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi gals, thanks for the sweet comments and prayers. I just got back from knit class and copied my next rug pattern. I am working on a sock slipper. I'll catch up with all your blogs this week. Hugs cheri

Rugs and Pugs said...

Cheri ~
Hugs to your daughter and hope she is feeling better soon. No matter what the age, you hate to see your child hurting. Thankfully you are close enough to help.
LOVE that sampler and you are becoming knitter extraordinaire!
Hugs :)

acorn hollow said...

you are amazing taking it one day at a time and taking the joy where you can keeping your daughter in my thoughts and prayers.

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi cathy and lauren, thanks for the prayers. I love that sampler too!

Mary A said...

I cared for my sister for 18 years who suffered from liver failure and who endured 3 liver transplants. Look after yourself and make sure that you take time to replenish your "well of giving." The nurses constantly told me to take care of the caregiver. Good advice!

Larkrise garden girl said...

Mary bless your heart for being there for your sister.I try to balance my life as best I can, hugs cheri

Kim said...

Cheri, you have expressed this so well. I have often thought the same things. It is those little moments that bring you back to reality and appreciate and accept the uncertainty of so many things.
Just this Christmas will all that was happening and the daily roller coaster of Mom's health. We were preparing for her passing. All the doctors and nurses agreed it was just a matter of days. I would have expected that my thoughts of Christmas 2013 would be filled with angst and pain. However, my memories of those 2 weeks are filled with the many kind gestures and acts of kindness I received.
Sending you and your family lots of hugs and positive thoughts.

Larkrise garden girl said...

I thought of you Kim and knew you would relate to what I was feeling. hugs cheri

Chris said...

Hi Cheri, just stopping by to say how delightful your blog is. Thanks so much for sharing. I have recently found your blog and am now following you, and will visit often. Please stop by my blog and perhaps you would like to follow me also. Have a wonderful day. Hugs, Chris

Larkrise garden girl said...

Hi Chris, Thanks I joined your blog. I can hardly wait to read what your life is like. Isn't blogging fun you meet the nicest people. Hugs cheri